For as long as I can remember, I've been someone who, although not the most disciplined when it comes to resting, has used available time effectively. I've not been one to give in to physical fatigue easily. If a job needs doing, it needs doing sooner rather than later, and I've frequently been able to forgo a few hours of sleep to complete a task. While my insomnia, at its worst, took its toll on my body in terms of skin conditions, weight loss, and an overall oddly unkempt look (and I certainly don't want to ever get to that stage again), missing out on a bit of rest always seemed to make sense to me. In short, I think to some extent I preferred the idea of using the extra time not "wasted" sleeping - if I was going to not be sleeping anyway, I may as well put the time to good use. The idea of being able sleep too much was something I never considered. I feel dopey, sluggish, and lazy.
I am trying not to beat myself up about it, as I know that psychological negativity will only serve to add to any sleeping problems, and so have been going about objectively researching and discussing possible reasons for the sudden onset of the problem.. This seems more sensible than adding anxiety to the list, and certainly beats catastrophising. A very kind and sensible friend of mine pointed out that I have, over the past few months, quit my job, moved countries (and continents), got married, moved house, and changed careers. In fact, I'd be interested to know whether other immigrants, to the USA or otherwise, have experienced any similarly delayed physical "come-downs", for want of a better term.
All of this fatigue may just be a delayed response to quite a list of major life changes. That, along with a little over-indulgence in the food and wine departments (!) over the last few months, and a distinct reduction in my usual exercise levels have probably all contributed to a previously unknown brand of tiredness.
The first attempt at a solution that I am going to try is a combination of regulated sleep (7.5 hours per night allowed, sleep or no sleep), vitamin and anti-histamine supplements (I'm having some fun allergic reactions to the different pollen here), a monitored, mainly meat/veg/fruit diet, and a proper exercise routine at the gym me and Ben joined last week.
Hopefully this will kick-start and maintain a healthier, more awake me. After doing this for 4-6 weeks, if I am still having issues despite having stuck to the plan, it might be time to consider anaemia, or some other deficiency that would need a doctor's appointment to diagnose. But for now, I am going with Occam's razor: I've done a lot of stuff and I'm a bit dozy. And so, to bed!
|The blue hour over Rodborough Common, England.|